Today is the day.......

I turn 30!!!!

I am actually okay with that. I am embracing the whole milestone of a new decade to enter in to. I feel blessed that I have made it this far in life. I feel blessed that for the first time in my adult life I actually feel healthy. I also feel like I look younger than I did when I turned 21, go figure. I did decide not to have a party or anything. I just want to go to dinner. Then, we are going to go back home and have Chocolate Cheesecake (made with splenda)!!!! I am really excited about this. There is a bakery in the area I work that makes sugar free options. Cheesecake has always been my favorite but I have not been able to enjoy for 19 months. I am certainly not complaining though, because over these last 19 months I have been able to loose 190 pounds.

God has blessed me in more ways than I can even begin to express. He has done exceedingly and immeasureably more than I could have asked for. What a great God we serve!! I really take each day as a blessing.

There has been something that I have learned recently about trusting God. I am not the best at letting go of the control on most things. I never realized how much of a control freak I really am. To even begin to think that I could do any better than God himself. Well, a couple weeks ago, I had a God moment during church where He said, "Paula, trust Me." I became completely overwhelmed and the tears began to flow. There have been several things going on in our life lately that has really been stressing me out. I made a commitment that day to trust Him. When I finally released the reigns and let go, I felt a load of burdens had been lifted. I walk more upright and stand taller because I don't have to carry that around with me anymore. I am excited for what the future holds and how God is going to use me and Wayne. I am also excited to see what other blessings he will send my way.

Thank you God for being so gracious and loving. Thank you for carrying those things I cannot carry and don't want to carry. I love you!!!!